We're half way there
Living on a prayer
Take my hand - and we'll make it i swear
Living on a prayer

UMAT's over and done with.
Section one sucks. to the max. *cries*
sigh. lets just forget bout that.

i can't wait for southbankone.
I WANT. I MUST.

sigh. gonna start up my engine... one more round to go. give it all you've got!!!!!!!!!!!!

TERM 3's gonna suck the life out of me.


We've gotta hold on ready or not
You live for the fight when its all that you've got

what do you do when you're stressed?
what do you do when you panic?
what do you when you feel like you have no hope?
what do you do when you feel like grabbing and pulling all of your lovely hair out?
what do you do???????



><>< T.T -.-" O.0 P.P :( :'(



gahhhh!!!!!! I AM FEELING SO SCAREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!




wish i could huddle and hide under my covers
wish i could scream my lungs out
wish i could close my eyes and open it again and 1 year has passed
wish wish wish wish wish wish wish





AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!






i think i'm going crazy.

it sucks when you fail. a blow to your pride, shattered confidence. trampled ego. there ain't anything nice bout that.

i'm not sure i have enough confidence to think positively. i'm not sure if i can even try.

but i don't want it all falling apart. i don't want my world crumpling down before me. if i could save it, i would.

each step forward is like sliding fifty steps backward. the more i try the worse it becomes. and they say as long as you try your best it'll turn out well. don't know how true is that statement anymore.

but what else is there for me to do? there's no way in hell i'm gonna stand by and do nothing.

............................
sucks huh.

sigh.

wow. it's been a very long time since i blogged. ahaha. yes yes. its a time for an update.


summary of term 2:
Sem1 exams over. (phew) and other small tests too. some did well some well er.... hehe. skipped quite a few(lot?) of lessons coz i er.. lazy wanna go. haha. though in the end my total absentee days for the whole semester only added up to 7 days! so that means i can still afford to skip about 13 more days during sem2 nd still be able to graduate!!!! yayyyy!!!! .... well that's about it for sem1 i guess. jz realised that i havent been doing anything other than studying. well except the occassional secret comic marathons and drawing sessions... XD yup. thats a wrap for the past 6 months!!!

oh. if you're wondering, no, i didn't go back this term. (nor term 1). sigh. so sien.
right now bro is in the farm. havent seen him for a week already and now is the 2nd week. he's gonna be back this fri. yayy!!! cant wait for his farm stories. (apparently he doesn't even have phoneline and internet in the farm. can only call us when he goes to the city where there is a line!! wonder how he's coping there. lol)

A little calendar for the near future:

1) term 3's starting next week
2) UMAT - 30th July - about 2 weeks time
3) PQA test - 9th Aug (i think)
4) VTAC opens in Aug. gotta start applying for my beloved melbourne universities.
5) mocks - in bout 3 months time
6) TEE!! - in 4 months time!!!!
7) then its officially freedom & graduation from highschool!!! WOO HOOOOO!

and then that also means this 2 weeks is thorough practice and revision for UMAT. to hopefully get a better score than my ISAT, so that i stand a chance for other unis. (so that i can get offered an interview)
and i also have to make sure i do VERY WELL to get a beautiful school aggregate/result so that i can have an extremely high TER score.

oh. not forgetting to mention that i'll be going to melbourne on the 8th aug to sit PQA test(for Adelaide uni) which is on the 9th (as stated in number 3). but that also means i'll miss out on the UWA open day on Aug 10th. *sobs* ahh.. but on the other hand, i might have a chance to get a glimpse of my dream uni --monash melbourne! and melbourne uni. (yay) and also go for a little shopping in the city. double yay!! sigh. hopefully i can get in lah. still dunno if my ISAT scores are good enough. hopefully they are. T.T

leave's me no choice but to rely on my (going-to-be) excellent school results. which means i have to study study studyyyyyyyyy! gah. that's what i've been doing and will be doing for the rest of the 4 months. well its obvious isnt it? so yes. my school textbooks are my soul mates now. sigh.

now for a little change of topic........................................................................

i just went on search for new songs and i found a new band! called SHINee.. new boy band from SM entertainment group. pretty young, bout age 14-18!! but quite cute and yes. talented. they can sing and dance! though they all have baby faces.. they are cute. their first single: Replay --> though i think it's quite like a copied version of Chris Brown's Yo(excuse me miss).. pretty similar kinda music video as well (and not to mention the dance moves!!).. they went dancing towards the girl and like basketball scenes and etc. yup yup. i see a resemblance. :p haha. but still.. i think they did a pretty good job. (go view them on Youtube!!)

and and and... Wonder girls' new songs!! So Hot and This Time and You're Out. pretty good i should say. since they always come up with good songs anyway! their new 'So Hot' is really catchy and my favourite though my ultimate favourite is 'This Time'.. just like how i liked Gajyuga, Wishing on A Star, and Mianhan Maeum. XD its really good!! i recommend it!! it's playing on my blog anyway. :p though if you want to have your own, go google it and then download and let wonder girls serenade your soul!!! XD
(btw, i love Sunye's new haircut!!!!!!!!! might try it someday, when i decide to cut of my locks. XD)

things to look forward to:

1) trip to China with Rach ( i'm seriously saving up. coz i REALLY wanna go!!!! XD)
2) go back to Penang. it'll be year since i've been back and i miss it(and all my friends of course) terribly.
3) leaver's trip? havent confirm info and details on that yet though. :p


sigh. ks. gotta go back to studying. its ok. i know my life's pretty sad right now. but i see happiness in a few months time. i shall endure. muahahaha. coz coz.. i have an aim:

Aim: make sure i don't have any regrets. don't wanna finish TEE and go, "shit. should have studied harder." hehe.
so!! jiayou+gambatte+selamat berusaha+goodluck to me!!!!

so cya. till when i update again. XD