it sucks when you fail. a blow to your pride, shattered confidence. trampled ego. there ain't anything nice bout that.

i'm not sure i have enough confidence to think positively. i'm not sure if i can even try.

but i don't want it all falling apart. i don't want my world crumpling down before me. if i could save it, i would.

each step forward is like sliding fifty steps backward. the more i try the worse it becomes. and they say as long as you try your best it'll turn out well. don't know how true is that statement anymore.

but what else is there for me to do? there's no way in hell i'm gonna stand by and do nothing.

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sucks huh.

sigh.